Orders (HaruKan, one-shot)

[koyuki]

Rykea~ *prods* You have to beta this. It's being posted because I'm afraid if I wait any longer, someone at 30k is going to eat my arse. o.x [edit] Rykea is done. *cuddles*

Title: Orders
Rating: PG
Word Count: 635
Genre: Romance (demented fluff/flangst)
Series: Tactics
Pairing: HaruKan
Warnings: shounen-ai and a kiss
Summary: In Haruka's world, his master's word is law. But it is what Kantarou doesn't say that matters the most.
A/N: For 30_kisses theme #5. "ano sa" ("hey, you know...."). Somewhat demented fluff. o.x


Orders

He does not do it out of fear, love, or reverence, but because it is just something that he needs to do. To him, it is as basic as the concept of breathing or the fact that the sky is blue. He is bound by his name, and in Haruka's world, his master's word—his every wish—is law.

Kantarou, however, is seldom very sure of his own hold over the ogre-eater. Despite all of it, Haruka also knows that there's only a certain amount of power words can have.

Hey, Haruka, if I asked you not to kill me... would you still?

Kantarou's voice is calm and smooth in a neutral way, though almost sad. He looks as if something inside of him broke and could not be fixed.

Haruka stiffens slightly before letting out a small sigh. He is not sure, though really, he doesn't want to know the answer either. The cost of the consequences isn't worth the knowledge. Haruka is, undeniably, the onigui tengu, but onigui is not "Haruka," so he cannot predict what his other will do.

I'm not sure.

Kantarou's vivid crimson eyes slowly turn to him, but his expression has not changed. He is silent for a moment, and when he speaks again, his voice is cold.

Would you kill me if I asked you to? he asks.

Haruka closes his eyes for a moment, contemplating.

Yes.

He answers so because that is what he would do, though he is not sure he could do it. Kantarou's words are his laws whether he wants them to be or not, but just as they are meant to be guidelines and set boundaries, laws are also made to be broken.

Haruka does not think he could kill Kantarou.

Oh, he says, almost pained. I see.

That hadn't been the answer Kantarou wanted to hear. But Haruka does not know what Kantarou wants to hear, what to tell him to make him happy. He just tells Kantarou the truth. Still, he wishes Kantarou would stop giving him the kicked puppy look; he feels guilty for not saying the right thing.

He does not expect anymore questions from Kantarou, thinking that there isn't more his master wants to know. But Kantarou always manages to surprise him once in a while.

Hey, Haruka, if I asked you to fall in love with me, would you?

Haruka whips his head around, almost shocked. But not really.

If I asked you to never forget me...

Haruka realizes these are just rhetorical questions that Kantarou needs to hear for himself. He wonders if Kantarou stopped seeing him, though does not say anything. Kantarou continues to voice his greatest fears and doubts, and Haruka listens to him because he knows that his master needs someone to tell these things to. Eventually, he trails off and the two of them sit in a comfortable silence.

Kantarou, thinks Haruka, is annoying and talks too much, even though he is not talking right now and Haruka doesn't mind his presence.

Hey, you know, Kantarou begins, his voice sounding less despairing, if I were anyone else, I wouldn't have to worry about asking you for anything. But I named you, so I don't have that luxury.

He glances at Kantarou and understands, because Kantarou's asking is the same thing as demanding and ordering in Haruka's world. They are all equivalently his law.

Hey, Haruka, Kantarou turns to him and smiles, all the gloom fading from his expressing. If I asked you to kiss me, would you?

And Haruka can't help but smile back, understanding the other part. What Kantarou says is his law, but what he doesn't say is just as important. And that's the part that really matters.

Kantarou does not order Haruka to kiss him. Haruka kisses him anyway.

owari

Comments

[moonraven-croft.livejournal.com]

*melts*

Really.

[koyuki]

*mops up puddle of goo* ^^; Thanks.

[23crayons.livejournal.com]

....♥ I love you.

[koyuki]

Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed.

[koyuki]

I'm glad you enjoyed it.

It makes me sad too, just a bit, because there will always be that barrier between them.

[lynnmonster.livejournal.com]

So sweet!

[koyuki]

Thank you. *bows*

[qem_chibati]

Hee~ Sweet.

[koyuki]

Thank you for reading.

[haicrescendo.livejournal.com]

That was super cute.I've been super sick for a week and I've got too much life going on for me to get any actual rest, I needed this.

[koyuki]

I hope you feel better soon. I'm glad I was able to help in some way. Thank you for reading.

[nekokoban]

I not-so-secretly have big wibbles for the unspoken angst of Kantarou's mortal lifespan. D:

Lovely, this way♥

[koyuki]

Don't we all? *sad* Oh well. Not much we can do. But write fanfiction~

Thank you. <3

[feliciter.livejournal.com]

Short and absolutely sweet ^_^

What Kantarou says is his law, but what he doesn't say is just as important. And that's the part that really matters.

Much love for these lines.

[koyuki]

Well, the power of words is pretty great, but everyone seems to forget that maybe it's what's not said that has the greater meaning.

Thank you for reading. I'm glad you enjoyed.

[annapeace.livejournal.com]

*happy sigh*

They're so lovely.

[koyuki]

I'm glad you liked it. Thank you for reading.

[ontogenesis.livejournal.com]

Ah, I really liked this portrayal of their relationship. Kantarou is the sort to worry about free will and all... nice insight into Haruka, too. He's hard to write, but you did a great job.

[koyuki]

Haruka is hard to write because there's that thin line that makes him HIM and NOT HIM. I'm glad you approve.

Thank you for reading.

[lkk.livejournal.com]

if I were anyone else, I wouldn't have to worry about asking you for anything. But I named you, so I don't have that luxury.

A very perceptive insight into Kantarou's character. Nice fic. I liked this! (I popped in from love_tactics. *waves*)

[koyuki]

I liked that line too. =) It's very angsty!Kan-chan-esque.

Thank you for reading. I'm glad you enjoyed.

[su-chan.livejournal.com]

So sweet!! ;D

[koyuki]

*bows* Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed.

[pippage.livejournal.com]

*turns into a puddle 'o goo* That was adorable!

[koyuki]

thank you.

hey...

[(Anonymous)]

my email is themysteriousinuyashafan.yahoo.com.sg... cn u email all de story of tactics? thx... and btw, is de manga tactics de same as de tv series? reply soon...

[shayheyred.livejournal.com]

Absolutely lovely!

[chironstar.livejournal.com]

OMG I love you.

*sniff* What a beautiful fic. You've portrayed both characters beautifully and perfectly. Thank you so much for writing it!

[lady-gyrfalcon.livejournal.com]

Aaahh... That was lovely. *sparkles away in the corner where she won't bother anyone*

very much late reply XD

[sailorlight22.livejournal.com]

i just found this comm.. Went to the very beginning and read forward to here... And you know, this is the first fic that i've felt a need to reply to (no offence to anyone else!) but this is great! i think it completely catches the feeling from this series.. all innuendo and wishful thinking aside, tactics is a pretty sad show, when you think about it. anyway, thanks so much for writing and sharing this, super job!